I have missed you guys, so when I had a moment of revelation yesterday I just had to share.
Maybe as far back as a year ago I decided I had lived with my parents long enough. Praying, I asked God to help me to find a job and a place of my own. Now I didn’t know if it was God’s will for me that I get a job and a place of my own, however I stepped out in faith. I took a step of faith and packed away all my books and knick-knacks. I got everything read for a move. My bed, filing cabinet, and dresser with my clothes were the only items that remained in place. I submitted almost twenty resumes, and then hunkered down to wait for the call backs. They never came. It’s been a year and so far, the only response I have gotten to any of the dozens of resumes I submitted was a one-line email asking if I was currently living in Alberta. Apparently yes was the wrong answer.
So I am still here one year later, more-so to my dismay that my parents (they love me 😉 ) Yesterday I was laying on my bed, staring at my blank sky-blue walls. I couldn’t help but chuckle. This thought came to mind, “Sometimes our steps of faith can be premature.” A few months ago I asked God what was going on, “something has to give Lord!” His answer was “just wait”.
I waited for about a month and then I got restless again, “could you at least give me something to do while I wait?”
The next night I found this verse in the Psalms (bonus points to whoever can tell me which Psalm!) “Wait on the Lord. Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart. Wait, I say, on the Lord.”
So here I am a month or two later, still waiting. I have however found things to do while I wait. I am building good habits, finished a thirty day blogging challenge last week on Looking for the Good, and have been hitting the textbooks pretty hard on my last few courses. I try to ask God every morning to guide my day so that I might have peace in knowing that I am serving Him.
What exactly did I realize yesterday, and then came to understand more fully today? I thought that by packing up all my stuff I was ready to move onto the next part of my life. Turns out, however, that was not the only thing that needed to be done in order for me to be prepared for the next step. God knew that I needed time to allow Him to prepare my heart for the next step. I needed to trust in Him and in His perfect timing.
Steps of faith are important, we are going to have to make them quite a few times in our lives in order to succeed, however sometimes we make them too soon. Our timing can be off. That is okay though! God’s timing is never off.
“Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness. Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:3-4
By being ready to throw my stuff in my truck and move in a moment’s notice I was not obeying God. I wasn’t building or nurturing relationships because I had the “I might move soon” mind frame. I wasn’t “dwelling” in the land. Everyday I was fretting and worrying, when God? How God? Why not now God? I wasn’t having faith that God knew best, and He had good in store for me, I just had to trust Him.
“Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.” Makes it sound like we’re supposed to love him and He will give us whatever we want, right? Not! The truth is, when we delight ourselves in God, we look to Him, and see how wonderful He is. When we see God like that, our hearts can’t help but be changed. And it is a change for the better, trust me my friends. As our hearts change, the desires of our hearts change. At the start of this year all I wanted was a job that makes good money, a house of my own, and all of it to be somewhere that doesn’t require me to drive five hours to go on a date with my boyfriend. When I stopped dwelling on myself and my wants, and started seeking God my heart changed. I began building relationships in my church, I started enjoying time with my family a lot more, and I have been able to invest more time in finishing my university courses, without stressing myself out about deadlines. The desires of my heart have become peace, love, and joy. And guess what? You don’t have to move to a new province to find them! God will show you how to sow and harvest them right where you are at.
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